Looking Back

I remember during the early years of my business, I was so depressed and frustrated and I couldn’t do anything right. Almost all of my saved up money for years were just going the drain in just seconds. I had many sleepless nights as I always thought of my worries and if I got lucky to find some sleep, I suffer bad nightmares that I just find myself shouting as I got up. I even tried drowning myself with alcohol, which just magnified my problems. The gravity of it was too much for me as I was also experiencing anxiety chest pain which led me consulting a psychiatrist and a psychologist. Both of them agreed that taking some anxiety supplements may help me as I was too deep in my misery.

My best friend Jake and my girlfriend Tasha helped me go through it. Jake was the one responsible for turning over a new leaf for my business as he has lots of knowledge in marketing as he was a business major in college. He helped me study the flaws and the feasibilities of the shop. He also helped me get a better marketing ploy for the business like putting up ads in newspapers and on internet blogs, forums and social media sites like Twitter, Facebook, Pinterest and Google+ which did wonders for the business. If not for him, I’ve already filed for a bankruptcy. I really owe him a lot.

Tasha, on the other hand, helped me deal with my feelings as I try as much as possible to push them within me. I initially wanted to just keep it in me to not bother anyone but me because in the first place, it was my idea to put up the said business. My mindset was I did this to me so I’ll try to deal with it myself. I tried to stay up float, but I can’t do it anymore. I kept sinking and sinking until I was out of it. I am glad that Tasha was there to cheer me up and help me divert my attention to other things like getting acquainted with my old hobby which was photography.

My dad was my first mentor in photography as I always accompany him on his nature trips. He always brings his old, analog SLR camera with a bunch of films and he shoots whatever he sees interesting all day. He also brought me a disposable camera for me to practice on framing. I was a fast learner so he then taught me how to use his SLR and I loved it. He first taught me about the basics like shutter speed, aperture, rule of thirds, metering and exposure. He was so delighted that he can enjoy photography with me. I was just 10 years old then when he gave me my first camera. Since then, it doesn’t matter anymore on where I am, in the streets, beaches, markets, etc. I just shoot and shoot until I got better. My passion with taking photographs ended when I started with my business. I also owe a lot to Tasha what I have now. He made me see the world anew. I am a very lucky guy as God gave me good company to defy everyday challenges in life.